A Set of Unanswerable Questions

Questions that just keep repeating in my head, non-stop, making me go crazy. And this won't even be all of them.

- Why do I miss Jessa sooooooo much?
- Why doesn't The Ex ever call? Wasn't one of the downfalls of our relationship that we would never compromise our friendship? That we would undyingly be friends forever?
- Why does my first girlfriend keep acting so fucking weird around me? It was for three months fucking 5 years ago. Smile and be polite! We were each other's fucking firsts in so many ways. And she's now engaged. Again, smile and be polite!
- Why do I care about how my first girlfriend reacts to me so much?
- Why am I so anti-social lately? All I want to do is go home, lock the door, turn off my phone, and re-watch OC DVDs.
- Why is everyone moving?
- Why do I miss Jessa soooooo much? So much that I'm thinking about all these options that have never before crossed my mind.
- Why do I really believe that Jessa is the best sex I'll ever have? And that I'm not ready to give it up yet?

And the kicker:
- Why is my psychologist out of town for so fucking long that I can't go to her and get all the answers? I know the answers are in me, and I even know some of them (a bit), but it's hard work to own and figure out my shit, and dude, she's my coach. I need her help.

And I'm off. Have a great weekend everybody.